I guess i just needed to "let it all out". I woke up feeling really depressed, and sad, and i can feel it building it. I kinda feel like i am gonna explode. I want to cry, i want to scream, and i want to destroy everything around me. My so called friend ethan comes here every day, and i am getting kinda sick of it, because i have noticed that he mooches off me, even though he has a girlfriend and a place to live. Still, he mooches off me. I don't know if he's aware of some of the shit he does, because people are who they are. But sometimes he makes me feel soooo bad about myself. I haven't told him to get out and not come back because sometimes i need company, cause otherwise i would be sitting here by myself when i am home. So for that reason, and that reason only i haven't told him to get lost. He's here right now, actually, and i haven't let on that some of the things he said a while ago, were like a knife in my heart. What he said reallt affected me, and all i want to do now, is to crawl into a dark whole, and never come out of it. Don't bother responding because i just don't have it in me, to discuss all this shit. I just had to write it down somewhere.