I just don't want to be here any longer. I'm trying really hard to fix myself but I just feel uncomfortable and useless no matter how I look at things. I'm a person with no confidence and I don't even have the ability to pretend that I'm normal anymore... Was up all night crying- STILL- because one man does not want me... and I feel ridiculous for feeling like that over one person. I didn't even really care what anyone else thought of me because I knew that he loved me and that was all I ever wanted. He doesn't love me anymore... so why should anyone love me? I'm not a lovable person. I'm a selfconscious, FAKE person who does not deserve to breathe the same air as everyone else. I don't think I'll be able to get better from this point. I don't have any hope left- I just feel really... really heavy and dead.