I've been here for awhile and I apologize for whining here again but I don't know where else to whine. Has anyone here been in a position where they have absolutely nothing and no one, and when you talk to people about it, they just tell you some dumb shit like "keep your head up" or "everything happens for a reason"? I looked at the depression test pdf post and realized I am a max score in every single tab. I doubt there's anyone here who's desire to live is justifiably less than mine. I quit working 10 months ago and am just living off of ssi disability. I sit in my room and watch twitch streams or play games all day. My dad says I'm doing everything to be depressed, and I'd say he's right, but I don't want to go out and meet people, or go back to work, or go to the gym, or do anything. It is a mental struggle just to go to the grocery store and I only do it because I have to. I just wish something would happen to end my life because I'm too much of a coward to do it myself.