so i was at party and i was drunk and i was forced to give a blow job. after that i cried evey single day feelng like a slut and a horrible person. and i started cutting when i hadnt and that is the last thing that i wanted to do, but i had to. all these people are spreading rumors that i had sex and that i hooked up with all these guys and i didnt i know what happened and thats not true. and i just feel worthless and iw anna die. and im gonna do it someone how i will im thinking of taking every single pill in my household with some alcohol that will stop the rumors and the self hatred. i know it will.