this is my first post on here so i am not sure exactly what to do. this past august I was told I had depression and anxiety after i thought about killing myself. I struggle a lot with anxiety and recently my struggle with depression has become just that a struggle. My support people changed and I accepted that it was my fault that i lost them as friends, was is it my fault? I have always been a big Christian, but am I sinning by not being happy? by seeing the light? by wanting to throw the light in? I told my support person last night that I needed some time away from my phone and I am glad I found this place but can anyone assure me that holding on is the right thing to do.