My mind is too tired . I've takin too much abuse , no love, no friends, no future . I've alienated myself from my friends . I can never find someone to be with and even when i did have an actual chance at love i always eff it up some how. I hate it that i can't actually do "it" because of the surrounding people around you. only if the first time had worked , Only if my pleads would be answered ... shit is too much for me to hack. I need out.