Don't know how to cope

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Maxine, Nov 11, 2015.

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  1. Maxine

    Maxine Member

    I do not know what to do or where to turn . There is nobody who can help me . I am alone in this world . I am dealing with so much . Nothing is right . Everything is a mess . I go to bed at night and lie awake for hours worrying about money and bills and dealing with the pain of my relationship breakdown and missing the place I called home for 10 years . I pine for home and my ex and my old life all day . I am exhausted I cant eat I cant stop crying . Every day is a living hell . I just want to go to sleep and not wake up . I wake up on a morning and its like the pain hits me all over again . The only person I had in my life to talk to and turn to is the one person I cant talk to or turn to . The only person who makes everything better and I want to run to when I am upset is the same person who is the reason I am in so much pain and isn't there for me to run too . I feel suicidal although I know even this isn't an option for me because I'm too scared to even attempt it. I just cant see a way out of all this mess . I have to work because I cant afford to live , even working I am still struggling and financially I would be crippled if I was on the sick but I feel unable to get out of bed most days let alone leave the flat . I just want a rest from the hurt and the worry and the pain and heartache . I want some peace but there is none .
     
  2. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    Hi Maxine, what country are you in? If in the UK you can see the NHS doctors (I think im right in saying that). I feel really sorry for you, I remember those days of depression, it hit me hard too when I woke in the morning,it was a living hell. I think you should see a specialist/doctor/counsellor, whichever you can afford and tell them your issues, im sorry about the break up with your boyfriend, i broke up with mine 2 years ago and it does get better with time. Hugs to you (hugs)
     
  3. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    You could also ring the samaritans, they have a free phone line and cannot give advice but they will listen and are a crutch of support for so many, myself included!
     
  4. Maxine

    Maxine Member

    Hi Petal . I just don't see how doctors or anti depressants can solve anything . They wont change the life I'm living . Doctors just don't understand ..well mine doesn't ..they just nod their heads sympathetically and prescribe tablets that I cant afford . Counselling ..having someone to talk too who actually listened and offered me good support would be great but it can take weeks if not months to get seen . There is no tablet that solves financial issues or heartbreak . I just feel lost . Thank you for your kind words xx
     
  5. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    Therapy more than anti depressants CAN change the way you think and solve issues.. I understand that some doctors don't care much, I have had my fair share of those. But there are some that really do care. The samaritans as I said up further can talk to you and help soothe your issues. Have you thought about doing a night course to try and get a better job? That might change your situation a lot. You can ask how long the therapy waiting lists are and I believe they can prioritize and get the worst patients seen sooner. I'm sorry that I'm not much help to you but I'm trying. You are not alone here so do not ever think you are!
     
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