Dont know if i can make it another day...

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by 1sadguy, Nov 7, 2006.

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  1. 1sadguy

    1sadguy New Member

    Hi, im new here. ive hit the lowest ive ever been. i dont know if i can make it another day let alone the next hour.i have a bottle of pills sitting next to me and i just want the hurt to stop.i just want to be free from all of this and im thinking that this is my way out.way to start off huh? hopefully ill be back on here telling a surviver story.i just want the hurt to stop!
     
  2. sudut

    sudut Well-Known Member

    please p.m me and tell me what the real problem is. Don't do it, you might come back to start from zero all over again, who knows. we are all here.

    in the meantime, visit
    http://www.near-death.com/andreason.html
     
  3. gitana

    gitana SF Friend & Antiquitie's Friend Staff Alumni

    1sadguy, I am so glad that you are here and you will find that you aren't alone. You will find many people here who can relate to you and help walk you through this pain you are dealing with. One min, one second at a time.. whatever it takes. I know exactly how you feel. My heart goes out deeply to you.

    I hope you will give us a chance before you do anything to yourself. Can you elaborate a little more what is going on with you?

    I have been there many times myself and have attempted. I have lost many people in my life also. For whatever reason, I am still here.. and right now, I mean, I thought I had hit my lowest of all lows in the past when I found this forum. The people here really reached out to me. The only thing I wanted to do was end it.. the deep pain in my life.. but here I am.. I was amazed at how many people here were concerned and listened to me, talked to me, talked me through it, didn't give up on me and I am not one to just share openly right off with people about my life. I have made many friends here and no, it isn't easy at times to keep going forward when life deals us with alot of shit. We all are not perfect and we all struggle.. We hold each other up.. through the thick and thin, encourage each other.. It may seem that it is pointless, hopeless, why go on?? Why? Why? Why? I don't know what the answer is but we are here for you and I am here for you. Let us help you.

    I know the pain is too great and runs so deep to the core of one's being

    You took the first step and reached out to us in your darkness and your pain and I know what that is like.. so please, hon, please, don't take those pills right now. Talk to us or just hang out with us.. don't look to the next day.. but when you make it through to the next day, you can look back and say, i don't know how I made it another day.

    Right now, to be honest, I am struggling and dealing with the lowest point in my life ever and I don't say that lightly. I have no idea where I am going to end up, or what is going to happen.. yeah, suicide seems to be the answer..that is where I always went, all my life since it was all I felt comfortable with since I was a child... Now, I come here first. To SF. Being a part of this wonderful family/forming friendships// awesome people here.. I mean that choice is always there. Just not now. okaY? We are both at our lowest points in our life right now.. I can't promise you that it will get better.. or when.. I hope it will.. So, let's hang on together and get through this storm we are facing... or are in the middle of.. I can promise you that you will find terrific people here who want to be there for you and be your friend if you will allow us to be.

    When one is in this space, it is hard to see a way out..it looks very dark and one can't see the light at the end of the tunnel as they say.. so it helps to talk to someone, whether or not you feel comfortable enough to share your pain with us.. but interacting with others who understand and can relate to you, as you get to know people.. You may ask yourself or think, why would we care about you, We don't know you..a stranger? why? Because we have all been there and we understand what it feels like.. that is why we are here. You are not a stranger to us but part of our family here. We welcome you with open :arms:

    May I ask if you are seeing a therapist to help work through what you are dealing with?

    Welcome, 1sadguy, lean on us to help you through this difficult time..

    Gitana
     
  4. 1sadguy

    1sadguy New Member

    thank you for the encouraging words. i want to get out of this hole, i dont like being here but it seems everytime i pull myself out i fall right back down. i was in a relationship for 6 years and about 4 weeks ago my ex told me she was dating this guy and was gonna give him a chance.i begged her to let me back, but she says she wants to try something new but dosent know if its gonna work.i have never loved anyone eles, and to think that she can just move on like that, hurts like hell.she says she still loves me and says she dosent know whats gonna happen, but she cant say that she wants to be with me.my heart is literally breaking and hurting.i dont understand how to her im not worth it, how it dosent bother her at all.im tired of falling back down in this hole and dont know how much longer i can keep struggling to get back out.
     
  5. Terry

    Terry Antiquities Friend Staff Alumni

    Ah Sad..same situation..know just how you feel.

    need a chat send me pm. :hug: :hug:
     
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