I am searching here but don’t know what I am looking for. Something to give me hope? ... belief? ... comfort? I have read many posts from people suffering and in pain. People who are feeling how I feel. Lonely, lost, desperate and so very sad. How do you move on from these feelings? Why keep going each day? I think of my family and what it would do to them. I try to hang on for their sake – that’s what I tell myself. But if that was truly the case then why have I attempted “the end”? Surely they wouldn’t want me to continue in this pain. I have exhausted mental health services. Have been told today there is nothing left I can be offered as apparently the last time I didn’t engage with them positively. I accept the failure of therapy is down to me. I have no motivation any more. All I do is cry.