Suicide, right now, seems like such a wonderful alternative to spending one single second more at my job. It's almost like a gift I'm giving to myself. No one seems to get how truly horrible each and every moment at this place is. That's another big benefit of doing yourself in, folks will get that it really was as bad as you were describing it. It's almost as if by doing this one thing for myself, I'm finally showing myself a little compassion. End it all buddy, you don't deserve this crap. Finally do something for yourself for once. It's like a big fat selfish Christmas wish.