Well a little about my past.. I have been a suicidal for about 14 years with many attempts on my life... Some were admittedly for attention... A few were not. I have ended up in hospital a couple of times after attempts and did see a crisis team. There is rarely a day that goes by that i dont think of ending it.. I only ever hold on for others! Well recently I lost my family (cuz the way I am) and friends... The only person I had was my GF... I am currently homeless, no money, losing weight so badly... I was holding on for my GF who I loved more than anything... Well now I have just found out she has repeatedly cheated on me! So now she has gone too! I have no-one at all anymore and the solitude is killing me! I feel strongly like I wanna let go!!! So so so much! I don't wanna let others beat me though hence I am here!! I am scred to goto the hospital as I dont wanna be sectioned! But if I dont get help I WILL end it! Help me someone!