I started to think I was doing better with my life but mostly with finding motivation and doing things, but now that tests have started at the Uni, I found myself again to be the same person I used to be, this meaning someone that doesn't care at all, won't study I started skipping classes again, well you can imagine the situation. I really thought I wanted to change and was working for it, but I think is pretty obvious I was just lying to myself, I just don't want to be here anymore. My life could be terrible but it isn't, which just makes it worse since I have no excuse for acting like a 5 year old. And now I just wish I could take my life to end this stupidity of mine instead of thinking what to do to become a better person. The problem also resides in the fact that I know what to do, I just apparently have no intentions of moving forward since I don't see why.