so my parents found out i'm cutting (again) and they won't leave me alone. they want to make me talk and then when i do they just keep repeating the same things that don't even help at all, like think positive and it'll pass and similar. they don't get that that doesn't help at all. a few minutes ago, my father threatened to punish me, like take away my laptop or internet, possibly phone, not letting me go to softball practice or not letting me go to the concert on thursday. and he's still threatening to take me to the hospital if i don't show them the cuts. but i don't want to talk to them because they just make me feel mor miserable.i just can't talk to them and they don't want to understand that. my father was talking to me and i broke down crying and what not and then at the end, he told me to calm down and do my schoolwork because i have quite a bit to do. he came back a few minutes after to see if i had really started. how am i supposed to do that in this condition? i mean, i've been having major concentration issues the last two months and my grades have already sunken this half year. and all my parents say is that it'll pass and that i have to do all i can to fight it and still have to get good grades in school. i have a few day old cuts on my wrists and fresh cuts on both my upper arms. the ones on the right arm are fine. they aren't that deep, i could show them that tho i think i won't. what i'm worried about is the cut on my left arm. it ended up deeper than any cut i ever had before and i think it needs better tending to than i can do by myself. but i don't want my parents to see my them. and i definitely don't want to end up in the hospital because my parents think it's that bad because it's not that bad. at least, that's what i think. this is not just about cutting though, i just don't know how to keep going with my parents. we have alwasy been able to pretend nothing is wrong and all, acting happy and cheerful especially around my sister. but now they take it on the easy shoulder. they think it's just a teenager phase or something. they don't get it's really destroying me and i suck at talking to people and i can't tell them that. i can't tell them straight out that i'm suicidal and hate this world. i have made tons of hints these last few years and today as well. all they say is "well, think positive then!" and i just don't know anymore.