I am having so many problems that I don't know what to do any more. So much pain from spinal stenosis. Had to get shots of cortisone for the stenosis. The cortisone has thrown me into heart failure (a heart function syndrome) . And the cortisone has affected my cancer level test results negatively. Am tapering down my cancer meds temporarily as a part of my treatment. The effects of the cancer meds and cortisone has left me overly emotional. Right now - all I want to do is end this merry-go-round. It just seems that everything is working against me. All day today - all I wanted to do was to end everything; and I came very close to acting on that desire. All I want to do is to go home.