Don't know what to do...

Discussion in 'I Have a Question...' started by Danialla, May 16, 2014.

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  1. Danialla

    Danialla Well-Known Member

    Last Christmas i bought a lethal means of killing myself. I wanted it because, although i am more of a planner, if I needed or wanted to act impulsively I could. I am having a series of ECT and hope this will help me feel better. I am concerned that if this the ECT doesn't work, I may go there. I know I need to get rid of this but don't know how. I don't want my husband to know what I might me capable of so i can't give it to him. I need someone in confidence to take it to and dispose of it.....but who. I have no one I trust who will not make a rash judgement on my state of mind. Does my dr. have to share this problem with my husband if I tell him about it? Any suggestions? Thank you!
  2. scaryforest

    scaryforest Banned Member

    doctor might tell because it is a life threatening issue?
    does husband suspect at all that anything might be wrong? is he supportive otherwise in general?
  3. Danialla

    Danialla Well-Known Member

    I thought about the dr issue too. My husband knows I deal with depression, but I am not quite sure he knows the extremes of what I would be capable of, I don't want to make him afraid of me.

    I also think telling my dr is a way of letting him know how desperate I can get, a cry for help so to speak.

    I don't know.....I read all the stories where people just snap and I know if something big happened (lost my job, etc.) I might be capable of it. Hell it scares me too.
  4. SillyOldBear

    SillyOldBear Teddy Bear Fanatic Staff Member Safety & Support

    Don't know what you have, or where you live, but in USA you can turn in handguns to local police questions asked.
  5. Danialla

    Danialla Well-Known Member

    Thank you, I do live in the USA.
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