Last Christmas i bought a lethal means of killing myself. I wanted it because, although i am more of a planner, if I needed or wanted to act impulsively I could. I am having a series of ECT and hope this will help me feel better. I am concerned that if this the ECT doesn't work, I may go there. I know I need to get rid of this but don't know how. I don't want my husband to know what I might me capable of so i can't give it to him. I need someone in confidence to take it to and dispose of it.....but who. I have no one I trust who will not make a rash judgement on my state of mind. Does my dr. have to share this problem with my husband if I tell him about it? Any suggestions? Thank you!