i know the feelings are wrong. i know that i will not act on them. or at least i will trying my hardest not to act on them. i for some reason dont have the desire to live anymore. i am ashamed to admit that. i recently came out the psych ward and this is how i feel. i feel like i need to be back there. but i have responsibilities. kids a husband, etc. i am so stressed out. i am so tempted to do IT u know what IT is. but i am trying to stay clear of it. well just had to vent.