It feels like I'm stuck in this situation with no way out except death. I have nothing to live for at all. I want to make my life better but I'm too weak. My mental problems and my physical problems are too much for me too handle alone. How can I overcome being uneducated, obese, socially retarded, depressed all with no support, encouragement or advice from any one else. No one even talks to me these days. All I do is sit at my computer all day, have no friends, no skills, barely any income. I don't like to post much because I feel like I always make myself look like an idiot and I'm embarassed and ashamed. I feel like the biggest loser in the world I don't even have the balls to end it. My life wasn't that difficult I don't know why I ended up in such a bad situation. First I was depressed as a kid, then I gained weight then I started failing all my classes. If you thought you would never have sex you would probably wanna die too right? Why is assisted suicide illegal, why should I even bother to try to fix this mess. Tired of people judging me!!! I feel self conscious its no wonder, people are always judging me. Hes weird hes fat blah blah blah I just wanna be normal healthy again. I've forgoten what joy and happiness are like. I'm a burden a leech and an embarassment to society and my family.