Nobody seems to understand.. I don't think I have in me to enjoy life right now. Achieving any goals I have seems impossible, both because my dreams are far out of reach and because I don't have the energy to accomplish them. Building a family, making money, going to graduate school, it's all so distant. And that's why it's difficult to live day by day or hour by hour. I am looking ahead years in advance, and I don't know if I'll make it there. I don't like where I am right now and I don't know what I can do to be happy.