I dont'know what todo over at my parents place I found a tape the other day of when I was baptized. I knew my mother would be on it, so I didn't watch it. but today I did. now I dont'knw waht to do it starts off with her dressing me and talking to me it's the first time ever that I hear her voice (consciously anyway.. I mean obviously she's spoken to me when I was a baby, but she died when I was 10 months so I can't remember her voice at all) and It feels so weird I keep rewinding and then watching that bit againand it hurts it hurts so much it hurts so much I don't know what to do it's fucking unfair and not good. fuck life fuck that fuck everything I don't knwo what to dos. Just want tog et drunk off myf ace.