This friday just gone my partner of 13 years suddenly changed and said she no longer loves me and she is unsure what she wants and feels like running away. It was like a completly diffrent person it wasnt her, over the weekend she has been stopping at friends and ive had the 3 boys who are 11, 9 and 3 and it came to a head on sunday i tried take a overdose but it did nothing. Things carmed down about until monday or was it tuesday im sorry but my head is all over the place. She decided to blurt out in my face that shes been seeing someone from work for 3 months, unfortunatly i slaped her twice in anger which isnt me and she knows that in 13 years ive never raised my hand once im not a violent person. I said sorry straight away and she accepted that but i was still angry so i went on the phone and decided to tell everyone how dirty she is and what shes done to us as all this time she wants to throw our family and 13 years away without getting any help. She left the house and the next thing the police came as she had complined i hit her, she didnt press charges but she came in got some things and went to a friends house and i was with the children i think it was tuesday. I just coulndt cope anymore i totaly lost it and i still feel like i want to die so i tried cutting my wrist but the dam knife was blunt, I know the children were in the house so i text her to come get them so they didnt see anything. The police came and took me to hospital and i was released that night. I saw my gp yesterday and I was still feeling the same i havent eaten in 3 days and i havent slept either, she gave me some sleeping pills and on my way home i bought some ibuprofen and i already had some anti depressants in the house and i took them all and once again it didnt work i dont know who called the police but they turned up as i didnt tell anyone what i was doing. She is the best thing that has every happend to me in my life i mean im 39 now and all my life has been one disaster after another ive had a terrible life till i met her, every woman ive ever been with has cheated on me and she knows this and shes done it herself. I honestly can not carry on without her she is my world I have nothing without her. I have no family up where i live and no friends im totaly alone and lost and i can not see any point in carrying on i just want the pain to end once and for all. Sorry to burden everyone but i dont know what to do. On monday i managed to get her to go to the doctors herself and she saw a locam she said how she was feeling how she was down on life didnt know what to do wanted to run away and all the docotr told her was if you want to run away then run away very helpful.