I honestly don't know what to do anymore. Every evening my mood declines and by now, I don't want to be alive anymore. I'm in counseling but it has yet to break this cycle. I just feel like all my friends would be better off without me. It's not like I contribute to anything. I keep trying to talk to my friends but I can never say anything. I guess I am afraid they won't understand. I just don't know what to do. My life is too hard.