I'm completely at a loss. I've given up on everything. Today I threw away all my meds, canceled counseling, and am dropping out of school next semester. I'm gonna spend the next few days getting shit-faced drunk. I really, REALLY don't want to be alive anymore, but I guess I'm too much of a pussy to kill myself. I deleted my facebook yesterday, because I felt like all the pretentious, selfish little assholes didn't care about anything but themselves. I tried to talk to my mom and she told me to get over it. Perhaps a shotgun in the mouth could make it all stop.