dont know what to do.....

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by RAY89, Mar 28, 2011.

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  1. RAY89

    RAY89 New Member

    I was with a girl for 6 months but we were soul mates she was everything to me and i was the man she wanted to marry. I started hanging out with my friends more than paying attention to her, everytime we fought i would break up with her because i was so caught up on going and hanging out with my friends i didnt know what i was doing to her. About a month and half ago we broke up and shes been gone since. i text her everyday how much i miss her and wanna be with her but she just tell me to leave her alone. I made a huge mistake letting her ago and ill regret it till the day i die. She was so good to me and i was to blind with my friends. Since i have cut off all my friends and just stay home crying and prayng for her to come back. She means so much to me and ill do anything to have her back. Everyone tells me to relax and let her go but i cant i miss her so fuking much and ill do anything for her. Tonight im planning on xxxx finally going thre with this. Its not just the break up thats causing me to fell like this, for the past 3 years ive been really depressed inside, ive been hating life for a while. My dads 75 years old and im so scared of losing him that i wanna die before he does cause its gonna kill me when it does. My moms is my life and i dont wanna hurt her and everytime she sees me crying she crys and it kills me inside to see her like that cause of me. i have a brother and 3 sisters but i only talk to one of my sisters about my problems but everyone just tells me itll get better but it never is cause i made this happen. This break up is my rock bottom i have nothing anymore she was my happiness. So tonight im gonna end it all and make everyone life easier without me in it and i wont hurt anymore, i cant eat, i cant sleep, i cant do anything cause i feel down all the time. I know shes gona forever so i will be gone forever also she can be happy now with someone else and without me bothering her cause im never gonna get over her i love her with everything i have and i regret my decisions till the day i die. I really need someone to talk to that understands me but theres no one everyone has the same answer "just calm down itll get better" and i cant take it anymore all i do is cry and pray to god that shes comes back. i miss her so much , i cant live without her.
  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    You have got to stop and think here you harming yourself will only make her hate you more You have to move on and show her how stable you can be okay If it was meant to be it will be if not time to move on . You cannot undue what has been done if she loves you as much as you love her she will come back if not then you need to move on.
  3. may71

    may71 Well-Known Member

    it could be that in time she will want to come back to you, but that could take a while.

    if you can treat your depression, you can get to a place where she will want to be with you much more.

    not being able to live without someone is not a healthy thing, and it eventually leads to relationships breaking up most of the time. getting to a better place would allow you to have a relationship that works
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