hi wasdawn, i understand how you feel, like so many here.
what has got you to this point? can you find something to distract you from your thoughts? for eg..i have been on a cleaning frenzy as my head was going crazy and it allowed me to switch off enough to get through the day. i havent done housework for a year or more and it actually felt good to see tiles sparkling and woodwork shining. it hasnt changed what is going on with me but it gave me a break from the mind chatter as i got so involved in such mundane stuff and before you know it, its tomorrow. try and do something energetic that you dont have the energy to think. thinking is the devil that fuels our illness.
take care :hug: