i feel lost, out of control, don't know what to do. don't know if anything can help. maybe there's hope out there somewhere.
people keep telling me it's going to take time. i don't think i can hang on much longer.
Is there a therapist or doctor you can consult and let him/her know how you are doing? You should not feel you have to deal with this alone, and if you are not associated with someone, is there a way for you to seek an evaluation? Thinking of you and hoping you stay safe, J