I've had clinical depression for two years and am suicidal alot. I tried to do it last night again but couldn't. I've discussed everything alot with different people (parents/psychs etc) and I've finally reached the end of the road where I am no longer going to discuss any of it, as it gets nowhere, except arguments and differing opinions. I don't know what to do now, I'm sort of stuck, because I cant kill myself and I dont want to do anything. I can see that my parents are also just fed up at this stage and have nothing to say or do. I was up all last night and was meant to be doing work experience in a garage, but in 3 weeks i've managed to do 3 days, as I flake out on it after sleeping really badly the nights before...cus I have stupid dreams about unrealistic feeble, pitiful desires, and I'd rather just not sleep. Any realistic suggestions ..i.e stemming away from the idealistic bs... I'm just asking to see if theres anything to do other then just waiting, because I'm getting sick of waiting and failing