Sigh. My health has been really terrible lately. I'm on the world's strongest pain med. I am suffering so darn much. My bf who I treat so good treats me like absolute garbage. He is always accusing me of absolutely crazy things. He blames it on his mental illness and it just makes me feel like even more crap. He is schizoaffective and I'm bipolar. But it isn't an excuse for how he treats me. He will call me a liar and interrogate me about crazy things. Then randomly go off on me. Put me down. Belittle me. Some days he is great and it confuses me we have been together a year and a half. I know he is emotionally abusive but I can't get out. I just can't. I just want to end this crappy life I have now. I really think I might tonight.