hey, dont know what to say anymore, ive tried talking to my therapists dont even think they know what to do now and i think they wish id just get on with it. i got detained by police under the mental health act a couple of weeks ago and then they let me go the next day and i went into hospital that same night. ive felt like this so long i did alot of my growing up in units. ive failed at everything ive tried to do and today i couldnt help but wonder what if this is as good as it gets? just about managing to keep myself alive everyday, the only relief from a police cell where i cant get myself and no one can get at me. ive had enough, ive tried asking for help but they dont want to know, my cpn asked me if i felt safe the otherday, i said no, she said not to worry and she'd call me the next day. i dont want to live like this anymore, i cant keep crying!