I feel like I'm just out for attention, so I hate doing this. Maybe I'm subconsciously out for attention...Idk. But, I'm in one of those moods again. Feelin pretty down in the slumps atm. I know it's my own doing...But there isn't anything I can do to fix that, or change my actions and there isn't a time machine... But, im tired of this cold heartless ruthless bs of a life, that I live in. I don't*want ro do it alone, I guess because I'm scared? But I'm just so mentally and emotionally tired of everything. This isn't a "in the moment because I'm upset" kinda thing. I'm tired. I want to go. There is nothing left for me here. The world would be a eenie bit better without me. It's wrong to ask for a "suicide buddy" so I won't ask if one is out there, and I'm not going to. Or, I guess I am in way by throwing that into this post...I'm just tryin be honest and say what's on my mind I guess. I just don't know what to do. I would be better off gone, because I won't be in pain. Me being here, I'm just in pain..