i feel so alone tonight. i know it's my own fault. i just can't reach out to anyone. everyone is out with friends and having fun. i just can't bring myself to do that anymore. so many things happened tonight and the memories are horrible. i don't necessarly want to die. just want the pain to stop. please. someone. help me make the pain stop. i don't know if i can do this anymore. too many memories and too much pain.