Well lately i seem to get worse with my eating. I started my new job in march, and i lost a lot of weight til now. I never really was eating right, sometimes too much, sometimes not enough. But now i'm sacked, and i really don't want to get bulky again. Honestly i'm still bulky but, you can see that i lost weight. I know how stupid that sounds now, but i'm really afraid of eating. I afraid that i will get bigger again. I hate the thought of eating. I was making dinner today, and i haven't really eaten the whole day. And this evening i was eating two slices of a tomato. And i was so full and sick after that. I don't know, but slowly it seems like i'm losing control over my eating. I'm done with ranting now.