you know i dont like it. you know what it does to me so why the fuck do you do it?! i don't care if you flipped out and lost control, you have no fucking idea what goes on in my head for weeks after you shout at me. no one understands how easily im hurt and how hard it is for me to make myself decent again. im emotionally and physically exhausted, i have shitloads of schoolwork to do and i'm worried about a friend, my most amazing friend that i can't help because i keep falling asleep when i talk to her coz i'm so tired!!! im sat here secretly in tears while your stropping downstairs! ive been trying so damn hard for you this last week and you dont seem to have seen that. after everything ive been through with mum and dad i'd expect you of all people to understand that you need to be carefull with how you screw at me. dont shout because that just sets me back 4 paces!