Lately I feel so depressed that I wanna die. Better to do so than to meet my friends. Spread bad rumors about me and even put us into a fight. Luckily the teachers don't know about this. I have tried to XXX along with my fingers and to XXXX. The closest person to me always watch me and put away every sharp things. I also tried to stab my own legs. I always try to not drink XXX right now.