Sorry it happened so fast. I looked but no one was there. The thoughts are so strong and bad. And just like that they hit. So many bad and horrible things I want to do to myself right now! I'm so so scared. I dont want to be in this place especially all alone. I feel like I've used up all the good in me and now the bad is there to take over. I cant stop the thoughts and dont know how much longer I can stop myself. Dont even know why I posted this, it isnt going to help. I want help but there isnt any, atleast not for me. Please dont be disappointed in me, I hate the thought of that.