I really don't want to be alive by the end of the week, my depression (and other mind problems) have got to unbearable I cant cope, my only coping mechanism was self harm but i done that and then cried my eyes out as i realised it made no difference. I don't really want to go into why I'm like this but I know 100% I have no future and right now I definitely have no life at all. (most of all I don't want to be alive anyway) I'm so scared at going through with it in case it goes wrong and I know it will be extremely unpleasant but I keep reminding myself it wont last forever and then I wont be in existence. I haven't the opportunity for a few days though I just cant stand being here until then. I want to die I really do oh god I cant stand it. I'm looking forward to the end of the week though (when I wont be here if all goes well) its the process of getting there that I'm worried sick about.