back from kendo - otherwise i would have been on sooner.
got my wife into the beginners - moving everest would have been easier. lol
im wishing you well as always!!!
im always here for you whenever you need someone!!!
but this family member is falling out
i'm total fuck up
don't want to fuck up anyone else with me
not right for me to do so
i'm too fucking far gone for a pro life group to be of help
what? convince me i should be happily confined to bed in pain?
i don't think so
i want out
i just have to find my courage...it will come. Those who left before me found it, it just took them a bit to get there. I'll get there. this is not exactly an easy thing...nor was it for those before me. no turning back.
can't just lay here fucking sobbing
vacillating between rage and sobs
this type of thing one is meant to be alone
i will never regret not abandoning those i cared about...at least they didn't go alone...for that i will always feel i did the right thing.