For me it will be the easy way, but the reality is that no matter what I do or what I try I'm ready to just give in and go. I'm 53, I have had fun in my life, made a bit of money, but I have to leave the house or just die. and I'm too old and now handicap to find new employment. I tried once a week ago, we had some stuff in the house for anxiety, so I researched it and found out how many would kill someone. So I took that amount and washed them down with about 8 ounces of whiskey. All I got out of it was that I drove into work the next morning drunk.. or at least feeling that way. Tonight, I bought some Dilantin, (don't ask where) and I'm giving one more day to think on it, if something does not happen by tomorrow night, I will take the< edit moderator total eclipse method> I'm pretty sure that I will pass in my sleep. So, do I contact my GP, or do I call a prevention line or just check myself in. Its so strange, in one way, I don't want to, on the other hand, the pull to do it is stronger. If I don't post in the next week, then we know. Peace to all. Don't let it get to this point.