Hello, I'm a single mother of three children. I suffer a severe bi-polar disorder for which I can't afford treatment. I have been a victim of physical and psychological abuse since the age of three. My entire life revolves around trying to figure out who I can find to watch my kids so I can go to work as there is no father in the picture. I suffer migraines, constant arthritis pain and, a wealth of emotional pain. I've been abandoned by just about everyone and the few people who do help do so at their convenience. I'm so tired of the stress, the pain and, the knowledge that I'm barely acknowledged by my own son whom I've done so much for. Some days I will just stare at a kitchen knife and think, it'd be so easy compared to living.