I don't want to go on like this anymore. Self harm has taken over my life. I am feeling so low all the time that all I think about is ending it. I have started making plans that next Friday will be a night where I make attempts. I wont talk to the counsellor about it as she would have to break confidentiality. I said this to her. I said to her that Friday I knew I would be self harming. I didn't say I would be doing anything else. I asked her though what would happen if I did disclose I was going to try and do something. I said to her knowing you have a duty of care I wouldn't say anything even if I was planning on it. I then went on to say how I always thought that my patients were stupid for telling us they were going to self harm or try and kill themselves as it just meant that they wouldn't be allowed leave or be able to actually do it. I am feeling like I am losing it. big time!