dont want tomorrow to come

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by tm2h, Jun 16, 2008.

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  1. tm2h

    tm2h Member

    Im dreadding tomorrow i have to go to my sons c.p.a. meeting at the secure hospital he is in thats not the whole problem with it though.
    Its also the anerversary of my sons death{some people} would say i should have got over it by now. As it has been 16yrs since he died but i still think of him every day and miss him.
    I have be saving up my meds and i also have a great deal of alcohol in the house. Im really scared that if to many problems are brought up at the c.p.a. i will once again take matters into my own hands.
    I dont really know what im looking for anymore i guess i just needede to get things of my chest so to speak.....
  2. fromthatshow

    fromthatshow Staff Alumni

    Well it's good that you are talking about it. It's always good to get things off your chest. Find a way to distract yourself if the thoughts get to be too much. Maybe get rid of some of the alocohol or meds so you're not tempted.
  3. Stranger1

    Stranger1 Forum Buddy & Antiquities Friend

    I am a little confused do you have one son or two? From what I have experiunced. Death is very hard to deal with. Don't feel bad because you miss your son. The important thing is he still lives as long as you keep him in your heart and thoughts.
    I am no xpert on the feelings that are going thru your mind, but I would like you to continue to come to the forum and share with us so we can give you moral support and a sometimes a positive thought for you.
    I hope you:Stay Safe and Stay Strong...:chopper:
  4. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    Keep talking and does really help to know that you are not alone and that there are ppl who truly understand...plez PM me if I can be there for you...big hugs, J
  5. tm2h

    tm2h Member

    Sorry i have 3 sons who are living and their brother who died and their elder sister ages range from 20 down to 14 he would have been 16 in april..
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