"dont worry...i'll get over it"

[beauutyy]

so normally i am a happy cheery person.
i have my moments but hell, i always say "dont worry, i'll get over it."
eventually, i do. and it doesnt bother me anymore.

well, my ex fiance has this habit of his, of bringing himself back into my life...randomly! i dont ask, i dont want, he just does. and part of me, kinda would love to have the man i fell in love with back. i'd give anything to have THAT MAN. but he changed,and he'll say he misses me.then gets angry and shouts obsenitites at me. he'll say i want to get back together, then says nevermind.

I HATE THIS MIND TOLLING. i have ignored and advoided him for a good month, until today, his new woman texts me saying how im a psychotic bitch, and i dont deserve to live and how my ex never loved me. now, i could've just told myself "dont worry, i'll get over it." but i just cracked for some reason. i didnt respond. i just deleted it. but i just cryed. and i have cried for about 4 hours straight wishing all my suicide attempts would not have failed. cause then i wouldnt feel this emotional pain...it just strikes my heart in half and then it falls to the ground and breaks into a billion and one pieces. and of course i know it will take a miracle to patch it all back up again...and even still im a vunerable silly 18 year old who falls for any guy that shows me affection. probably cause i lack so much of any kind of affection...blah! ugh. i hate feeling like this....*sigh* oh well,



"dont worry...i'll get over it."

 

[kingad86]

It always struck me as ironic that the ones we love the most have the power to hurt us the most, then one day I realised that if they're willing to do that then pehaps they're not actually that important. While I know love is a strange and powerful emotion and we can't plan or legislate for who we fall in love, sometimes it's worth taking a step back and seeing that someone who would treat you like that isn't deserving of your love in the first place. Also there's nothing naive in falling for/caring for people,we've all fallen for the wrong person (some of us on more than one occasion) and while it can hurt in the short term hopefully you learn from it. Love is like anything in life, to get the reward you have to take the risk.

Hope you feel better,

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P.s I don't normally post responses but your tale spoke to me

 

[theleastofthese]

I understand the feeling of wanting "that man" back, but not the man he's become. I went thru the same feelings ten years ago, but now I'm happy being on my own. I get lonely sometimes but basically I'm happy being single. Hope you can find some happiness in your life.

 

[Horn Of Gondor]

Hey, your a young good looking girl, you can just go get another boyfiend.

 

[mortdesinos]

I don't think he's worth your time and energy. As you say, he plays mind games with you. You don't deserve that. You deserve so much better. I think you are headed in the right direction.. you realize that you succumb to affection very easily. The last thing you want is to be hurt over and over again. Instead of saying you'll get over it, this time you can tell yourself you don't want to take it anymore. This time it will be the last!