So this is probably one of the weirdest things I've ever posted. But I cant shake it. And I have this feeling like I need to let somebody else know so that if something happens then atleast someone else knew about it. Doesn't make sense and probably by the end of this post it still wont.
I have this incredibly overwhelming sense of doom today. Woke up with it. Feels like something horrible is going to happen. And if I could stay home like I usually do it might not be so intense. But I HAVE to go out to some errands and appointments today. I'm finally in a personal place where the suicidal thoughts are being held at bay. They aren't controlling me. I've found someone that wants me for me, I'm making plans for a trip, the kids will be off school soon and summer has finally arrived in my little corner of the world. Things aren't too bad. But last night I had a terrible dream. It was so graphic and so realistic. But that's all I can remember. No details. And I'm trying so hard to remember it because somehow I think it was showing me what it is I'm fearing today. I just dont know! But I felt so strongly that I needed to post this, to let someone, anyone else know. I've got about an hour before I have to start my day. I'm really scared here. Anybody else able to make any sense of this?
I have this incredibly overwhelming sense of doom today. Woke up with it. Feels like something horrible is going to happen. And if I could stay home like I usually do it might not be so intense. But I HAVE to go out to some errands and appointments today. I'm finally in a personal place where the suicidal thoughts are being held at bay. They aren't controlling me. I've found someone that wants me for me, I'm making plans for a trip, the kids will be off school soon and summer has finally arrived in my little corner of the world. Things aren't too bad. But last night I had a terrible dream. It was so graphic and so realistic. But that's all I can remember. No details. And I'm trying so hard to remember it because somehow I think it was showing me what it is I'm fearing today. I just dont know! But I felt so strongly that I needed to post this, to let someone, anyone else know. I've got about an hour before I have to start my day. I'm really scared here. Anybody else able to make any sense of this?
