Hi... I'm gonna tell you about the largest loser in the world. And will properly be quite negative as this is the first time I can/do actually tell someone about how I feel, rather than acting like everything is great. I'm a 21 years old guy with no job living in my dad's house. I have never done or wanted to do anything besides just being left alone, I basically hate people. I am asexual(nonsexual) and have no desire to have a relationship with anyone and least of all (obviously) have sex. I have had 2 friends in my life, one of which is my cousin. The only "talent" I have is computer stuff and I have a small useless education as "web-programmer", but I absolutely hate the thought of working in the “industry”. I have only had one job in my life, which was 6 months in a kindergarten as a “helper” and I kinda liked that. But the thought of having to study for 3 years to work with kids... no thanks. I have no desires or dreams other than to be alone without having to do anything (which is obviously not possible). I have felt this way for as long as I can remember. I am good at acting happy, outgoing and friendly, not even my dad or mom knows any of these thoughts. Most people like me when I talk with them (when I'm forced to). But I am highly introverted and don't like talking at all. Besides that I have been overweight most of my life even though I have never been very unhealthy and I prefer healthy food. I have thought about going to the doctor with it, but I honestly can’t see what that would help. I’m not gonna take medication for being an unhappy loser. Now I am basically just waiting for my dad to get tired enough of me so that he throws me out; which I think will be soon. And that will most likely be my cue to find a high building, if not sooner. I just can’t see why I should go on... If I got a magic genie to grant wishes, I would properly just wish to never have been born. As even with unlimited possibilities I see nothing that I want other than a trouble and pain-free existence (or nonexistence). ...Well thanks for reading my crazy thoughts... You now know me better than anyone in the world!