A 'broken mind' can heal, it's just a different process of healing than if you break an arm or leg. I have the same trouble: when I see people who are successful I"m only reminded of my lack of success.:sad: I'm seeing a therapist and taking antidepressants and "mood stabilizers", and they help. In my opinion a lot of the severely depressed people I know - including myself - are highly sensitive and very aware of what's going on all around them. Sort of like your nerve endings are all sticking out and receptive to every little thing. For me, just the thought that someone or some living being is suffering is too much to bear.
Are you getting any professional help? Counseling or meds? It might be worth a try, if you keep on beating yourself up over past mistakes, like I do too often, then seeing a counselor can help you change your pattern of thinking to something more positive. Give it a try. It could change your life for the better. Let us know how you're doing. We care.:smile: I care.:smile:
love and hugs and hope,
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