I feel life has totaly screwed me these last 4 years. A job I enjoyed and was very good at and had been in for over 25 years was eliminated through company downsizing 4 years ago. Since then I haven't found any job I could fit in or last for retirement. I went from 1 job to another each year, and was either laid off or the "temp to hire" turned out to be temp only. Right after being downsized 4 years ago I was going through an adoption agency to find a girl for my wife & I to adopt. We had her for a year with the intention to keep her, but the court decided to send her back to the family that kicked her out because they believed it best to keep her with her sister, that the family just wanted anyway. We loved her and still miss her as if she had been ours. To top it off, the other family forbids us to have any contact, saying it would be too hard on her to have "2 parents"! I have been depressed and have trouble sleeping, taking sleeping pills is only temporary. Counceling has been a crock! They just seem to want to take their money and "see you next time sucker". Nobody seems to understand or know how to help. My wife just makes fun of me. I have taken additional job training, but all I am getting is rejected. It seems no one wants someone over 50, "over the hill" has been. It is now time to take an active measure to end this misery. I have come up with a plan that I entend to carry out soon.