five months of being clean right down the drain. i have felt i needed relief though and this is where i'm finding it at least for now. i don't plan on keeping this up, but then again i never do. i am a drug addict. i can't take this anymore and no place i can go to for support, even NA. NA thinks i'm confusing my mental health issues with my sobriety issues. screw them. i hope i can stop at just this. i don't need another problem just looking for some temporary relief.