So.. where to start? Off my meds and have been for two and a half weeks. Was doing so well with everything. Thought I was doing well before but this was different. The thoughts of suicide and wanting to die just disappeared. For a whole two weeks I have been on a high. Been out visiting friends, doing work, going to the gym. That was until today. This afternoon. All those feelings have just come back in one hit. Feel like I have been hit by a bus or something. Have been home alone every night this week and loved it, but tonight I am home alone and really considering going out to the medicine cupboard. How is it that you can go from one extreme to another so quickly. This is ridiculous. Now I have been reminded of how it feels to be well and happy, it is even harder to be down. Don't even know what to do cos I have spent the last two weeks pushing all offers of help away telling people how good I feel. Got another week before I see my psychologist and another three weeks til I see the psychiatrist. I hate depression!!!