It didn't take long and 2013 has started in the worst possible way. I had some faint hopes the most essential problems would get a little better or at least delayed ,but it took only a few weeks and I can already say that my worst anticipations have been superseded. Now after 2 horrible years a third one is on the way ,but this time with all the consequences the first two years have been building up. My job ( which is my passion ) ,my health, the prospect for any happiness,all of this has evaporated. I have come to the conclusion over the last 2 days that I will have to cross the Styx in 2013 .It is a comforting thought though as at least I do not have to sit around like a living failure facing endless years of misery and humiliation combined with having to listen to benevolent speeches of well wishing and encouraging morsels of apparent wisdom. I am neither depressed nor delusionary, I am just stating how it is in a practical and forward looking,sober way. I cannot go on like this.