So, I'm 28, can't get or hold a job, failed college four separate times, left the military because of a suicide attempt (my first of two). It's clear I'm of no use to anyone in my life, all I do is drain on them emotionally and financially. I'm probably an addict, but I just don't care. I've stopped taking my meds, they don't work anyway, and I've spent all night watching videos of suicides and trying to decide on a good method. In the last five months I've been dropped by three therapists, <ModEdit:Method> all the while I've worked maybe a total of a month. I'm worthless and pathetic and this world would empirically be better off without me. The proof is there, my parents wouldn't be draining money into me anymore, my friend wouldn't have to deal with my drama all the time. So yeah, I'm just about out of reasons to keep going. Not sure what to expect in response to this, just felt like venting a little.