Tell me, when things are going well, do you ever look over your shoulder and think something's terribly wrong, or will be terribly wrong. Do you have a sense of DREAD that your contentment will be taken away? That disaster is looming? Don't get me wrong. I enjoy the good moments I have. It's just that I fear the future. I fear misfortune. I've been thru so much already. Do I have strength to continue?